Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ---- So here we go again, I'm back at it relizing that I treat my blogs like red headed step children, but I do truly love them. They are like my online diary because very few people know, or even care about them. Today I went back and read my first Xanga, well some of it, and it is 10% hilarious who I was 8ish years ago when I first started it. I was a freaking junior in highschool. I am now officially 25 years old, going through my quarter life crisis. Working a dead end job, single., living at home with my mother, single as a dollar bill......all of the things I swore not to be at 25 when I was junior in highhschool. Like how depressing is that! But oddly enough I'm not nearly as depressed as I was during my senior year of highschool. I have so much more peace with life, it's really weird. In fact I have so much less going for me now than I did then, so why the heck was I so upset. I mean as a senior, I was in love (aww Maine), I had the promise of college, and my entire adulthood ahead of me. Now I'm washed up, lonely, and stuck......I guess it's true when they say God makes all the difference. It wasn't that I didn't know God in highschool, I just didn't know him like I know him now. It sounds so weird, but it is so true. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Updates: That group of siblings in the last blog, yea, null and void. Stuck on Jermaine? yea null and void. Circle of friends: yea null and void. I'm like a totally new person, and I absolutely love it. I mean there is so much more to be said and explained but I just don't feel like it right now.